Saturday, October 9, 2010

A Road Previously Traveled

Tomorrow I am heading down to the Outer Banks in North Carolina for a week-long vacation with my wife's family.  It should be an amazing time. Last night on my way home from work I was thinking about the drive down there through Delmarva.   The last time I took that road, I was not a Christian and was heading on a trip filled with heavy drinking and partying.  That was my last such trip as it was actually during that trip where God began to really reach out to me.  It was just a few shorts months after that trip when I fully committed myself to the Lord.

I have always had some connection to God in my life.  Or at least I thought I did.  I prayed every night even as a child and generally went to sleep singing "Holy Holy Holy" in my head.  I did not know the meaning behind the song and I had little understanding of who the God was that I was praying to, but I did always know there was a God.  But for as much as I thought that I sought after God, I now realize that I did not.  I was always seeking to impress God, but never looking to submit to Him.  I thought I knew who He was, but I never took the time to learn about Him. 

The amazing thing about God's grace is that He seeks after us.  As a child, there are a few things that happened where I could have or even should have been seriously hurt or worse, yet God preserved me.  There were times where I was about to cross lines into sin that I do not want to even think of, yet God preserved me.  There were times I wanted to give up a belief in any God, but that knowledge that there is a God would never go away.  When God did reach me, I was a drunk depressed bitter angry person. 

I was reading the accounts of the calling of Paul, the Apostles, Mary, David, and prophets what I noticed is that none of them volunteered for their calling, but God found them where they were.  God reached out to them and called them into His service.

God promises us that if we seek Him, we will find Him. That is not because we have any ability to find God, but because seeking Him means we are finally looking for Him. When we look for Him, we learn that He was already there looking for us.  When we seek God we learn that He already found us.  In fact, we seek after Him because He is already speaking to us.  We don't find God, we just realize that He has found us. 

Remember, Christ died for us while we were still sinners and enemies of God.  God sent His sin to us, by His own decision and out of His own love.  God so loved the world, that He  sent His son. God so loved the same world that rejected Him. 

If you have not found God, understand He is looking for you.  If you have strayed from God, remember He is looking for you.  That is how deep and amazing the love of God is, that He loves us enough to seek after us even when we have no desire to seek after Him.  Seek God and you will see that He has found you. 
"Or what woman, having ten silver coins, if she loses one coin, does not light a lamp, sweep the house, and search carefully until she finds it? "And when she has found it, she calls her friends and neighbors together, saying, 'Rejoice with me, for I have found the piece which I lost!'" Luke 15:8-9 NKJV


  1. I remember this time in your life-wow, you have become such a man of God, Ben, through everything. I have known you over 17 years, and that's almost hard for me to believe sometimes! We have both been tested and blessed by the Holy Spirit, and he has sharpened us over and over. I know Robin is indeed a blessed woman, and I hope you guys have a LONG life together!

  2. I am indeed a blessed woman. I LOVE your heart for our Father and how far He has brought you! I am most excited about what He has planned for our future! <3