Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Why I Do What I Do

So why do I do what I do day after day, writing on this blog?  It is a good question.  It is not like a million people read it, it is not even like a hundred people read it.  To be honest, I have not checked traffic stats in quite some time, but it is safe to say that I am not starting any kind of movement.  Sometimes I feel like a lone voice in an empty dessert.  Sometimes I feel like I am shouting at walls or preaching to choirs.  Either  there is no movement or the movement was already there to start.  Some may ask why I even continue to do such a thing.  Why write when so few read and even fewer hear it?  I do it because I believe this is what I was called to do.  Recently, for kicks and giggles, I took one of those Christian personality assessments or gift analysis.  You know, one of those long surveys where apparently your answers determine your spiritual gifts and Christian personality.  Oddly enough, my strongest trait gift came up as prophet with pastor being second.  I do not know if I am either of those things, certainly not based on a personality test.  I will say this, one thing I do have in common with prophets is that my message is rejected by those who need to hear it the most.  It does not hurt me personally that they reject my message.  What hurts me is that they just do not see the spiritual danger they are in.  They would rather reject a message that makes them feel uncomfortable rather than examine their own hearts to see if it is true.  Some have even tried to cause family problems because they would rather reject a message about righteousness than celebrate a display of sin. 

I am not bothered by the fact that worldly Christians are offended by what I say.  They should be offended because the Scripture I share judges the sinful worldly life they so love to live.  They do not want to hear that God will hold them accountable for their actions. They see salvation as a free ticket to Heaven while not realizing that there should be some effect in their lives.  They know they are the bride of Christ, but they care little to nothing about being a good bride.  They are a selfish bride, wanting a Groom who smiles down upon their wicked lives.  They care nothing about being a pleasing bride, they only care about what they are getting out of the deal.  They are the ultimate "gold digger" marrying into Christ only for the eternal riches they believe they will get no matter what their lives show. 

I am hear to tell them that they are wrong.  I am hear to tell them that if there is no change in their lives, then they really need to examine themselves to know that they really are saved.  I am not saying that if there is no change that you are not saved, but I am saying you had better question and examine it.  You have no second chance for getting that one thing right before you stand before Him.  If you have no desire to please your Groom then is your heart really after Him as His bride?  And please do not think that going to church makes that all go away.  Going to church is for the sake of learning about the Lord and is not a work in and of itself.  If you go to church because you think you are supposed to and not because you desire to then you are not even going to church with the right heart. 

Jesus loves His bride, even dying so that she may live forever in paradise as His bride, but His bride should also love her Groom.  She should want to be pleasing to her groom.  She should desire to spend time with her groom.  She should desire to know what He likes and does not like and desire to do those things that make Him glad and desire to not do those things that do not.  And so, I will be here day after day, so long as the Lord gives me messages to write.  I will be teaching what it means to be saved, to be a child of God, and to be the bride of Christ.  I will teaching not just things things the Lord puts on my heart that others need to hear, but what He puts on my own heart for me to hear.  The truth is that I am not as pleasing as I should be to the Lord, none of us are.  I hate those times when I am not and I am so thankful that the Lord who saved me is the same who is raising me up slowly but surely to be a perfect bride for my Lord who promised to return to take me to our home.  When you read the closing verse, think say "me" when it says "church" or "her". 
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her, that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word, that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish.  Ephesians 5:25-27 NKJV

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